This summer season was the primary summer season I actually felt free. not simply meals freedom or fr…

This summer season was the primary summer season I actually felt free.

not simply meals freedom or freedom to exercise once I need.

however freedom from having a voice inside my head management my life. freedom from guilt, freedom from feeling like i needed to be this excellent image of well being to take care of my picture as “the wholesome one”

freedom to be who I wish to be and do what I wish to do and to truly take pleasure in myself

Individuals at all times say simply “take heed to your physique”, however I at all times discovered to so arduous to separate that manipulative, controlling voice in my head from what I actually wished

This summer season I really feel I lastly began to study to belief myself, I dropped that identity- of well being defining me as an individual and began to study who I actually was past that.

I took a step again and realized to distinguish who I AM from that voice that was telling me who I needed to be.

I finished making an attempt to suit into that field containing that black and white definition of well being and made my very own definition.

A defintion that was centered on what made me FEEL good as an alternative of what i felt i needed to do or what made me look “match”

I realized I’m somebody who enjoys tea, oatmeal, and figuring out, however I additionally take pleasure in lazy nights, a bottle of wine ( or 2), charcuterie boards and watching the sundown

Did I acquire just a few kilos? Presumably…however what I do know I gained? recollections and freedom

& truthfully I’ve by no means been happier

AND that’s reallllly what issues 💛